Diane’s Blog

As you’ve probably noticed by now, these entries are getting farther and farther apart.  When I first started this blog, I thought it would consist of my jotting down some random thoughts weekly — that turned out to be unrealistic on my part.  It turns out that what wants to come out of me are short essays, and that takes more time and effort on my part than I am willing or able to give on a weekly basis. 

Thus, the once-in-a while blog is born!  At some point I guess I’ll have to have my web designer remove the “Weekly” from the top of this page, so as to not confuse.  Quality over quantity, people…

I’d like to share with you a little epiphany I had last weekend.  I started having an off-and-on pain in the upper left quadrant of my stomach — after 24 hours it had not changed.  So I did what I’ve been practicing for a couple of months now — I told my body that I’m sorry, I’m here, and I’m listening.  Having had an adversarial relationship with my body for practically my whole life, I finally got it that this needs to change in order for me to create not only better health for myself, but the sense of well-being that I want to experience at all times. 

When I receive messages via my intuition, they appear as just another thought, but I’ve learned to distinguish them from the messages that my ego sends me, which are almost always directive, often negative, forcing, and urgent.   Therefore, I knew I had a “hit” when I suddenly heard the words “Lighten Up” spoken gently. 

Well, that’s it, I thought.  Of course.  Even though I’ve tried to tell myself that I’m pretty relaxed these days, a deeper part of me knew that this wasn’t so.  I immediately began to remind myself periodically throughout the day to lighten up.  This helped a little, and indeed, the pain was gone by the next morning. 

Because I felt I needed to know more details about what was going on, I sat quietly the next afternoon and asked for guidance.  Because I am connected to my inner guidance system, and because this is what I do, I always receive an in-depth answer.  It turns out that a great deal of my anxieties about not being somehow “good enough” are still with me, and the pain that manifested did so as a reminder that this is so. 

It’s true — when I thought about it, I realized that I still have the fear that I am somehow inadequate to do the work that I am here to do.  Here’s where it gets complicated for all of us — I know intellectually that I am more than prepared and skilled.  Emotionally, however, part of me is constantly sabotaging this knowing.  This particular fear is rooted in my childhood — I am quite familiar with its origins. 

It was a reality check for me to be reminded that it is still active in my life, even though much of the time I may be unaware of it consciously.  My guidance suggested that I notice daily when I start to feed myself any sort of negative thoughts about my abilities or about how much I am “doing” since part of this fear manifests as forceful messages from my ego self that I should be doing more to prove my worth. 

The bottom line is “Stop The Should-ing!”  It’s always humbling to receive a reality check like this.  Especially because there are times when I receive the opposite message from the ego — the one that says “I am more evolved than (fill in the blank).  Our egos are funny that way — they like to keep us on quite an emotional roller coaster by informing us that we are at either one end of the spectrum or the other. 

What we seek of course, is balance — the middle point between better than and not good enough.  The process of waking up is now in full swing on this planet, and as I’m still being reminded, noticing and changing the thought patterns that no longer support us is our basic spiritual practice.

I’ve been spending some time considering what my deepest desires are lately.  Have you done this?  It seems to be a very effective way of paring away the superficial in life from what really brings us joy.  At least it is for me.  This is partly a function of aging — hell, I know that.  I turned 58 in November after all. 

But there’s also more to it.  It seems to me more and more that in this consumer-driven society it has become increasingly difficult to separate MY desires from those that are created artificially and funneled into my home via a television,, the Internet, etc.  Perhaps you’ve worked your way past these manufactured “needs”.  There’s still one more hurdle to jump, and that’s the trickiest one – the ego. 

It’s my understanding that one of the main reasons we are here is to learn to recognize and follow our inner voice over that of the ego, and for most of us this is a lifetime’s work.  In other words, you will probably receive one list of desires from someone to whom you ask, “What are your true desires?” 

That list will look quite different if you ask them to spend a week holding the question lightly in the back of their mind, letting it drift in and out, especially before they fall to sleep at night, and then allowing the answers to bubble up  from the heart in their own time.  If you are at all interested in following your spirit’s lead, this exercise is an effective measure of how far you’ve come. 

I’m not saying that your deepest desires have to evolve to the point where they are all non-material — please, spare me that.  As long as we have bodies it’s probably better to stay in them.  I would simply say that if after 20 years of telling yourself that you are working on your personal baggage your list of desires is still heavily weighted on the material goal side, you may need to go deeper. 

 I’ve noticed that over the last 10 years or so, my list of heart’s desires has become more and more weighted toward nature — I seem to need ever-increasing amounts of time spent walking through forests and observing the birds’ behaviors.  Having this information available to me on a conscious level has made it easier to act on.  And harder for others to convince me that something else is more important.

“Well, I’ve done it again.  Yup — caught myself any number of times in the past week trying to figure something out again.  Thought I was past that.  I certainly know it doesn’t work, which is why I worked so hard to drop this particular strategy from my repertoire over the last eight years. 

What happened eight years ago, you may well ask?  Here’s what happened: I decided to participate in the “Whole Life Expo” in Cleveland by purchasing booth space.  I was at the time calling my work “The Heartlogic System” and this seemed an excellent way to promote it.  This turned out to have been a naïve move on my part, but it was fun.  Across the aisle from me was a man named Gary Bonnell, whose booth seemed to promote books he had written; he also seemed to be giving brief readings of some sort. 

I paid little attention to him until the third and last day of the Expo, when I had a little free time and spent some of it looking over his books.  I was fascinated; here was all sorts of information about such topics as reincarnation, various esoteric wisdom teachings, and the Akashic Records, about which I knew next to nothing at the time.  I sought Gary out, and, to make a long story short, he sat me down for a free five-minute reading. 

I only recall one thing from that reading, but it’s a doozy.  He said, “Stop trying to figure things out!”  I said something like, “Yeah — you’re so right.”  Then I spent the next few days driving around in my car trying to figure out what he meant by that.  I finally got it, but it seems to have taken a long time for me to really implement this in my life.  After all, I spent the whole of my life up until then doing just that most of the time — trying to figure things out in my head, mostly so that I could experience some sense of control over life.  Some degree of safety. 

 Isn’t that what we do?  If I can just figure out ahead of time exactly what it is that my boss wants, I’ll have it made.  If I can just figure out how to make this relationship work — etc., etc. and so it goes.  In this analytical, left brain-worshiping society we can’t leave anything to “chance.”  The problem with this approach is that it ignores at least half of the information that is available to us. 

That information is contained within what you could call “intuitive knowing.”  We don’t know where we got that great idea that just came to us, but we know it didn’t come from analysis of the situation.  It just appeared.  In fact, it is just this process by which almost all of the world’s greatest ideas, inventions, and art have manifested: you do all the practical information-gathering, and then you let your intuition guide you. 

 I know this is so from my own experience, because I have now tried it again and again over the last few years, and it always works so beautifully — really beyond any initial expectation –that I am always shocked that I spent so much time “up in my head” going around in circles trying to force my brain to do work it was not cut out to do.  Once in awhile I still have to remind myself that this is so, and that happened this week. 

 I always catch myself at some point in the “chasing the answer around like a rat in a maze” mode; I notice that I am starting to feel a fuzziness in my thinking process as I continue to try to force an answer to come but keep hitting my head against a brick wall.  How does this work for you?  If you’re still trying to “figure things out”, why not step back and give life a chance to lead you?  I’ve found myself led to magnificent vistas that I never “figured” I’d experience.

Before I begin this week’s entry, I want to state that the classes I mentioned in last week’s entry are on hold for now.  For a number of reasons, I will probably not present anything until spring.  So — more on that in a few months.

Having been back from my trip to Cleveland for a couple of weeks now, I am really struck by the connection between travel and perspective.  It seems as though I can go along in the same groove daily — repeating my routines, as it were, almost indefinitely.  But yank me out of that groove, even for a week, and suddenly I am seeing many things more clearly.  I imagine that many of you have had this same experience. 

When we drove up to Cleveland, Jim and I were planning to build a house here in Asheville.  Two weeks later we are planning to move to Massachusetts at that time instead.  What happened?  Change is a funny thing — you have to be ripe for it or it doesn’t happen.  No one can MAKE you change your mind about anything.  That’s nonsense.  But if you already have a million little questions swimming around in your noggin, then all it may take is one whack on the side of that noggin and presto — those questions suddenly coalesce and new awareness pops up. 

 Apparently the questions in my own head had been multiplying over the last few years — questions regarding what I really need in terms of where I live.  Seven days in Cleveland and I know I belong in New England! Realizations happen in just that way, I have found.  The simple act of spending time with a few of my good friends in another city was enough to push me out of denial and face my true needs.  Let’s face it — we are all in denial about various things in our lives.  It’s the American way. 

 We have fears, mostly about change, it can seem much easier to not rock the boat.  The problem is, the nagging questions in the head don’t go away — they get louder over time, and more difficult to suppress.  Sometimes we project them on to something else, so fearful are we of looking at what we really need to thrive.  I thought I had invested so much in my choice to leave Cleveland and be here in Asheville — but the truth is, a couple of very important needs were not being met. 

On our drive home from Ohio, I decided to blurt out to Jim some of my feelings of unhappiness, and I wasn’t too surprised to hear him agree with me.  A few days later, I asked for guidance about how to know where to live among the numerous options we seem to have.  Among other things, I was guided to spend some time thinking about what my needs really are — particularly those which determine where I live. 

This turned out to be extremely helpful; out of six major needs, I have two that are not being met.  At this time in my life, it’s clear to me that I will not be happy allowing one third of my major needs to go unmet.  Sure, there’s plenty of natural beauty, space, and a benign climate here; what there isn’t is: people of my kind (bright, Northern, liberal, irreverent, literate, humorous, compassionate) and a close proximity to culture: museums, plays, etc..  Oh, there are some folks that fit the description I just gave, but not many. 

Mostly this is a Southern culture, and I have never acclimated.  Let me put it this way — hearing country music on the loudspeaker in every single store I walk into here is a form of water torture, and I need to be released.  I realize not all of you will agree with me about that, and that’s as it should be.  It seems to me that at this particular moment on the planet, when we are speeding towards an uncertain but undeniable destiny, one of the most important things we can each do to assure our individual groundedness is to find the geographical spot on which we feel most at home. 

 Look around you — what works for you and what doesn’t work so well?  Is there something you can do about it right now, or within a year or two?  More and more I find that I’m not willing to settle, especially when that means compromising my ability to feel joy on a daily basis.  How about you?

The other night I was watching The Dr. Phil Show which featured a face-off between a young, attractive woman in her 30s and a man of about the same age, an attorney.  The young man, who is African-American, is bringing a lawsuit against the woman who runs a revenge-oriented web site for women who feel they’ve been treated badly by males. 

 The gist of the tale is that more than one woman posted their complaints about this particular man.  Each of them cited a different problem, ranging from asserting that he is actually gay to alleging that he has herpes and did not inform them.  His real name was used and a picture of him posted.  This man argues that not only are these allegations untrue but that they could cost him dearly in terms of future employment, if any potential employer should “Google” his name on the Internet and turn this information up. 

Both he and Dr. Phil made numerous attempts to get this woman to say that she at least understands his predicament; she did not.  In fact, she asserted repeatedly that she has absolutely no responsibility for any of the information posted on her web site.  This is what her lawyer told her.  It is apparently her main defense. 

 None of us except the man filing the lawsuit can know where the truth lies, but where does the responsibility for posting this information line?  It’s a question that’s has been intriguing and bothering me a little ever since.  As the plaintiff pointed out, having this information posted on a web site is very different from seeing it in print elsewhere — on the Web,  it could be there forever. 

 Isn’t this a familiar refrain?  It seems that everywhere I go these days I run into people or organizations or institutions who believe they are being victimized, and they take no personal responsibility for the actions on their part that led to their victimization.  If no one is responsible, how will we ever resolve our differences?  Perhaps even more important, how will we evolve spiritually?  Because evolution of the spiritual kind, which as far as I’m concerned is the most important kind, only occurs when we each make the choice to take responsibility for every word and every action that we put out there. 

I know about this first-hand because I didn’t begin to take responsibility for my actions until I was 40 years old.  Until then I blamed everything and everyone around me for my unhappiness, and that meant that I was dependent on change to occur from the outside rather than how it actually happens — from the inside out.  The wonderful bonus for me (and everyone around me, I’m sure) was that as soon I began to say “I guess I created that”, I stopped feeling victimized.  Who knew? 

 It’s as if we’re being asked to take responsibility now on the global level — anything less seems to be resulting in egos clashing, people dying, and situations becoming worse rather than healing.  While it is certainly possible that the woman appearing with Dr. Phil has the law on her side, I keep wondering where is her sense of moral or ethical responsibility for the space that she occupies on the Web?  Multiply her web site by just a thousand and imagine the possible consequences. 

I had to make a decision a number of years ago that I feel relates to this issue.  When I receive spiritual guidance from a higher source, it doesn’t feel as if it’s coming from Diane.  Many times I don’t even know what I have written in answer to a question from a client — I have to read it over after I’ve channeled it.  But I realized at a certain point that if I didn’t take responsibility for the words I am writing, who could?  Spirit?  I don’t think so.  Although that would be nice…

Today I checked in with my guidance to see if there was anything special that you could benefit from in this week’s blog.  The following is what I received: 

 ”We are all on a journey, one of tolerance, greed, poverty, wealth — in short, experiences of all kinds.  As we travel down our own personal road we each will experience a moment or a number of moments during which everything changes.  What does this mean?  Simply that all that we thought was true, all we assumed was important, and all we hoped was real is suddenly seen to be illusion. 

 It now becomes necessary, for the first time, to jettison the old, outdated thinking that allowed us to continue living with this illusion as if it were truth.  In this moment the world as we know it slides away and behind it we catch a glimpse of real life.  How does this manifest?  For some, this will mean a loss of a relationship and glimmerings of their true ability to lead a solitary life.  For others, illness will strip away the illusion of control, showing another way to live — that of acceptance; trusting life to take us to places that are frightening without fighting against it every step of the way, and in so doing finding faith. 

 No matter how it comes to us, each of us is due to wake up to our true nature as a lovable, worthy, creative child of God whom no physical circumstance can break.  We can allow this to be our greatest moment or continue to try to keep change at bay.  No one can force us to evolve; those who choose not to, won’t.  It’s really that simple.  It’s a personal choice. 

 We still think we are living in a predictable world governed by human logic.  That is the reality that must give way to the greater perspective behind it: We are governed by divine logic and have little “control” over anything.  The universe works in a way that is foreign to our logically oriented thinking, but mystery is an acceptable mode for living.  This means that although very little that we set our sights on turns out according to our plans, there is a loving hand behind every situation, guiding us toward greater congruence. 

 Our job is simply to notice that this is so as we walk through our experience of life; to allow ourselves to open to the possibility that human logic is not meant to be our only guide.  Then, as we continue to open to the opportunities that come into our lives, sometimes disguised as events that feel negative to our judging mind, we begin to suffer less.  We begin to attract into our lives those people and situations which more closely match our evolving Self.  We begin to see and feel a greater potential for personal achievement; and we begin to notice certain areas of our life in which things seem to be falling into place without any effort on our part.” 

 And so, perhaps each time you hear another horror story on the news this week, instead of your usual response, try using this as a cue to remind yourself that, seen from a higher perspective, all is well.  That we are right on schedule on the planet, that there is a guiding hand behind every event, and these events can be seen as opportunities to move beyond our perception of control and into a space where we no longer feel the need to judge and to be “right.” 

 We can each experience great shifts in our own lives by initiating such an attitudinal change.  The new energy we carry then touches everyone with whom we interact.  At some point, a critical mass will be achieved, and Earth as a whole will awaken to the greater perspective of cosmic, or unity, consciousness.  Even if you feel skeptical of all this, acting as if it were true will bring you great rewards.  What do you have to lose?

Last week I finally read Ishmael by Daniel Quinn.  I’d heard about it for years, but never got around to reading it.  As you may know, it involves a re-telling of human history with a different storyline then we have been taught.  The interesting thing to me is how drastically this history is changed by simply telling the story from a different point of view. 

 I started to think about how we are bombarded every day with “facts” about our health, our opportunities for advancement, and our safety, to name a few.  Then there’s the whole realm of political persuasion, in which every elected official and pundit assures us they speak the “truth” with their “facts.”  Isn’t it funny — a large percentage of our U.S. population believes the “facts” spouted by one political party, while an equal or greater percentage sucks up the “truths” of the other. 

 What’s going on here?  Can that many people be wrong?  How do we separate fact from opinion and truth from “truthiness”  before the next generation of history books are written?  I’ve noticed that we are now being lied to.  By everyone.  All the time.  I’m no longer referring to politics alone.  Oh, no.  Apparently the rules changed without fanfare a while ago while we as a nation were collectively napping. 

 Suddenly it’s not just OK — it’s a “strategy” — to lie about the free trip to Florida  you’ve just won but didn’t really; the “natural” ingredients in that jar of peanut butter; how much weight you can realistically expect to lose on the latest 98% caffeine diet pill; how you, too, can qualify for this shiny new house (car, boat, whatever) even with that basement-level credit score. 

 All this has got me wondering — who determines where we go next as the most advanced brainstems on this planet?  Telemarketers?  Political operatives?  Fortune 500 corporations?  In other words, who will we, as sovereign individuals, allow to not only determine the course we take from here on in, but also interpret the story of that course for future generations — if there are any. 

 I keep coming back to the lowest common denominator — personal truth, the kind you can only gain by experience and observation.  We tend to reject personal experience out of hand in our society — it can’t be measured in a lab, so it’s fairly worthless stuff.  If that’s ”true,” I ask myself, then why does my life keep improving and feeling increasingly authentic and “safe” the longer I do all my own testing in the laboratory of Diane’s daily life? 

 Each of us has to make a decision based on the following question: ”Do I need to look to others for “truth” and hope that I follow the “ right” authorities, or is there an innate wisdom within me that I can tap into and allow to guide me safely through life?”  Once we know the answer to that question we can make one of the following our conscious decision:  “I will put the future of this planet into the hands of those whose agendas I cannot know” or “I am now ready to take responsibility for my role in determining the success or failure of the human experiment.” 

I asked for guidance recently about marketing my web site.  The answer I received made me say “Duh!”  Guidance is often like that, in that what it really does is tell us what we already know but haven’t yet brought into sharp focus.  (Often because we don’t want to) 

 So this answer seemed obvious:  “You are an unconventional person — why would you choose to pursue conventional marketing advice?  It won’t work for you.  You will need to allow your creativity to flow freely; then you will find the methods that “work” for you.”

This inspired me to take another look at my life: sure enough, I have almost always been different.  But that square peg-ness was extremely painful in my first, oh, 40 years or so.  I feel compassion now for the Diane who so desperately kept trying to fit into a world that didn’t accommodate her uniqueness.  The thing is, if you haven’t looked within in a serious way over time, how can you know what your needs really are?  Most of us think we know, but we don’t. 

Here’s a test: How many times have you agreed with someone in the last week without digging deeper to take stock of how you really feel?  Then look at your life and ask, “How often have the important events and turning points in my life been governed by “shoulds”?  For example, I married my first husband because I was 37 years old and held the belief that if not now, when?  There’s a “should” for you. 

 Or going back further, I went to college right after high school even though I hadn’t a clue about who I was or what I wanted in life.  All my friends were going, and it was assumed by all that I would, too.  “Here’s the application; pick a major.  Well, put SOMETHING down.  You can always change it.”  Only since my early 40s have I really celebrated my different-ness, and that was pretty wobbly until more recently. 

 Now I realize that the very qualities I once felt I had to hide are the ones that comprise my gift to this world; it is always so.  If there is one pearl of wisdom I could give, it would be this: Choose to dig deeper and find your own different-ness, because within it lies the key to your greatness.  Okay, two pearls: If something isn’t working for you — look more closely.  Maybe it isn’t meant to, if it doesn’t fit who you really are.

Last week I talked about my concern that we tend to not get worked up enough about the state of the world.  Funny how you can step around a corner and Bang!– you’re looking at the other side.  My father sent me a newspaper article this week from the Cleveland Plain Dealer.  Although at first glance it seems to provide useful information — graphs, statistics on medical care for retirees — a closer look had me jumping back like I’d stuck my nose into a funky garbage can.  After checking out my response with that of my husband Jim, I tossed the thing into a file drawer.

 Why, you ask, did I flip out?  Well, I’d be pleased as punch to answer: I no longer conspire with worry-mongers.  My dad, on the other hand, is a full-out black-belt, proselytizing worrier.  I can remember hearing his voice back in my teen years, responding on many occasions to my innocent statement that I wasn’t worried about whatever it was.  “Well,” his deep voice would boom, “You SHOULD worry!”  And so I did.  I learned to be a champion worrier.  Hell, I’d worry if I even suspected that I might run out of toilet paper before my next scheduled trip to the grocery store.  Did you notice the word “scheduled?”  Yep — I was also a world-class control freak.  More on that another time.

 But as I began to look at my life in a new light in my 40s I realized there is a hidden hand guiding everything we do (not necessarily “God” — but a greater intelligence.)  And then I understood that a soul that is lovingly, purposefully guided and supported every step of the way is wasting absurd amounts of energy by worrying.  As James Redfield, author of The Celestine Prophecy stated in an interview, “Worry is negative prayer.”  Oops!  That really hit home for me.  The last thing I want to do is send more negative energy out into an already gasping world.

The aforementioned article on the growing cost of medical care for baby boomers meant well, but its whole point of view was to scare the shit out of us about how “unsafe” retiring at any age now is, unless you’re Bill Gates.  Worry because of scarce resources is big in the media these days. While I agree that there will be people going under financially, and who knows, I could be among them, I know that worrying is a self-fulfilling prophecy.  Especially harmful is dwelling on “statistics” and anything quoted from “experts.”  Please.  Who can be more expert than me about how I choose to create my life? 

 Interestingly, large numbers of people (also sheep) are quite easily directed if someone yells “Fire!”  and then points to the door they want said sheeple to pass through. So I hope you’re not in “worrier” mode.  Here’s an interesting fact: You can’t worry and be fully present at the same time.  It’s not possible — our conscious mind can’t achieve that particular multi-tasking challenge.  Try it out if you haven’t already. 

 Whenever I’m tempted to worry, I ask myself — “Is everything okay in THIS moment?”  The answer can only be “yes” unless you just expired. (Now THERE’S a whole other topic)  Then I remind myself that the future is just a string of “this-moments.”  So the chances are really good that they’ll be fine, too.

Okay I know that for those of you of a certain age that song title is incredibly vapid, but “Subterranean Homesick Blues” just doesn’t describe this week’s musings; Ms. Spears’ pop hit does.  What I did again is listen to my ego voice as though it was my truth.  It isn’t, of course; Spirit is the voice that carries our deepest truths.  But I got sucked in by the ego’s thoughts and didn’t recognize them; they can be so darn convincing.

I decided to share this week’s process with you because it’s what we all have to go through over and over if we choose to evolve.  (I’m talking spiritual evolution here — this dimension apparently escaped Darwin)  I had always been confident that this web site would do well — meaning people would take advantage of the personal guidance I offer.  That confidence seemed to flip over on its head about a month after publication of The Soul Garage.  I found myself suddenly entertaining thoughts like, “Nobody will even FIND this *!&# web site, forget about requesting guidance!”  And more recently, “Oh, who cares, anyway.  It really makes no difference to me.”  Wha ’sup wit dat?

Within three weeks my vision for my work went down the toilet, and along with it went my sense of moving in a certain direction; suddenly I was lost.  I finally did what I learned to do back in 1992 when I first began receiving answers to my life questions in written form from higher guidance — I sat down with pen and paper, aligned myself with Spirit, and asked.  Because much of what I received in response is universal, I will now share with you excerpts you may find useful:

 ”Your dilemma is this: You haven’t a clue when your work will take off and this is driving the ego crazy.  Its response was first — “Oh, it’s just a matter of time” which quickly has degenerated to, Nobody will EVER come to me for help –fuck ‘em!”  Does this sound familiar?  It should, as it is a long-time response system set up by your ego many years ago to protect you from outside disappointments.  This is not your truth.

 Your truth is that you are now offering to the world grace in the form of your answers to individuals’ most pressing problems, and you know you are the real thing.  Your truth is also that whatever happens, Diane will continue to evolve.  The timetable is set only by the ego, which wants Diane to feel guilty for not DOING more at this time — does that sound familiar? In order to feel the motivation you want you will need to discern the ego voice when such thoughts arise and do so vigilantly.  Right now you are accepting that voice as your truth and are becoming lost in it.  Your work WILL be found — never fear. 

 Allow yourself to have “negative” thoughts and feelings without judging yourself, Dear One.  The thoughts in themselves are harmless, and you only give them power by dwelling on or by immediately pushing them away.  Acknowledge them, thank them, then move on.”

 So you see, I did it again.  I gave more authority to the external world than my internal wisdom.  Although I don’t do this nearly as often as I used to, obviously there is still work to be done. So for all of you who are choosing to reach for the life you really want, please know three things:

1) Notice your thought processes, especially when they become negative and/or you find yourself feeling guilty about not being good enough in some way 2) Go with Spirit’s guidance, whether on your own or through someone like myself, and 3) Forgive yourself, no matter how many times you catch yourself buying into egoic thoughts as “truth.”  What matters is walking through this corrective process — how often is irrelevant. 

 Each time we choose to align with Spirit we are learning to carry more authentic power.  That’s the kind of power that brings both inner and planetary peace; until we understand this as a species we will continue to flail against “enemies” and feel impotent, no matter how successful we are as currently defined by our society.

Please feel free to contact me here at The Soul Garage if any of this is confusing to you.  I’d be glad to answer any of your questions.